How Did I Overcome That Pain?

Following up with the previous post, I will share that I overcame that pain today. The very first thing I did was get out of my room. Since I was too depressed, I locked myself up in the room, and I did one thing only. Sleeping. That’s right. I slept like dead because I realized I hadn’t slept well for a long time. Maybe you will ask why I was in a bad situation and still kept posting for my blog. I must tell you a little secret. When I started this blog, there were some moments when I was not in the mood to write. So, I decided to make as many spare ones as possible. It means that when I want to write something, I will write them. I even write more than that and leave there. If I am not interested in writing a blog, I will use the spare posts to publish. Luckily, I have several of them to use for this occasion.

My new haircut. What do you think?

I got out of the bed, washed my face, and drank coffee. Since I decided to continue to go back to school in the next semester, I logged into my school account and registered for the next semester. I felt relief that it was not too late for me to do so. I took a walk in the park. It was a sunny day, and things were so peaceful. Inside me, I felt a little bit happy. I went home and read some books. On my bookshelf, there was a book that I bought a while, but I didn’t read it yet. That book is the same as other books on the shelf. I put them on the to-be-read list. Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf. I love this book so much that I don’t have any words to describe it. It fits with my mood at the time. But the first sentence, “Mrs. Dalloway said she would buy the flowers herself,” made me want to buy some flowers myself. I drove to Trader Joe’s and bought my favorite red roses. I place the vase in my room. I looked at the roses every day, and they improved my mood. The beauty of roses always has a unique power to uplift the mood of someone who is in a deep depression or sad. It makes you feel loving this life more. I made a goal to try to read two books per week and read long books this summer like Les Miserable, War and Peace, The Stand, or The Covenant of Water (current best-selling book). And just like that, I succeeded in the first step of recovering.

The next thing I decided to do was go to the gym. Here is the funny story. I constantly reminded myself to go to the gym to get my body in shape. But I was too lazy to do so. Now, I am so fat that I decided to go to the gym on this occasion. The more I exercised in the gym, the more I released the adrenaline inside my body. It was so good. I kept running the treadmill as a symbol of running forward. I left outside my mind all the sadness of what I had been through and focused on making myself healthy. I watched movies too. As you remember, I spent the whole week doing movie reviews for “Camera…Action,” which was the same week as Cannes Film Festival. It helped me relax, as always. Watching movies is one of my favorite hobbies. I always carefully watch them and write reviews on Facebook to share with friends of mine. Besides the movies I shared with you that week, I also watched many black-and-white movies (mostly noir), and I will share with you soon. And today, I had a haircut. I want to have a different look, which is more vital than I used to be.

Throughout the time I recovered from that pain, I knew one thing once I paid attention to something else besides thinking about the failure I had faced. I had to live with it because I wanted to turn that failure into a lesson in my life. Nothing can break me, and nothing can break you. I share with you how I overcame that pain, not because I want to show you how strong I am. To be honest, I have not recovered 100%. I still feel sad, and it will take time for me to get over with this. I want you to know that it is not the end of the world when you fall down. If you know how to go, there is always a way in front of us.